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July 30, 2006
HAHA. what a funny thing! turns out chengxi is the person who left the comments! quite funny, haha. well, chengxi, thankyou for all the encouragement! thats why i love disco! all the seniors care! (: today my dad was very angry with me cus he said i don't study enough. so i am feeling sad now. because i know what he says is true, but i'm really sad that he's taking such a harsh tone with me. but i know its all for my own good and i love my daddy. but i'm still sad i guess. ):RARRR! ANGRYNESS NOW.ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!!!!!
;seokh
Y11:23:00 am
July 28, 2006
i am so so sorry to have neglected my blog for the past week): have been ultra busy the entire week, haven't had enough sleep, and have gained bigger eye-bags. and i think there is something wrong with me. i'm still sick after a week): the dull pain in the back is still there, and i've started feeling nauseous since the past two days. and NO i am NOT pregnant! today when we were walking towards the canteen with sokh i was telling yanneng i felt nauseous and he was like "sokhwei it was you right who made her pregnant?!" and mr paul lim was like giving us weird looks because of what he said. and i was laughing all the way to the canteen after that, haha! yanneng is a really fun guy to be around sometimes(: oh yeah, which reminds me. how can you know if you're pregnant? that day florence and i were talking about x-rays and like we're gotta sign the thing stating you're not pregnant before the guy lets you take the x-ray. how the point is, how do you know whether or not you're pregnant? so odd. haha.
earlier i was talking to chengxi, two years my senior from disco. so we had a very very interesting conversation, which made me realise i miss 25th alot!! just suddenly want to say a big thankyou to all the seniors in 25th who have made my time in disco such an enjoyable, memorable and unforgettable one. thank you for all your protection and the security you guys have given me. (: hmmx and he had alot to say about jc life, and i realised that jc life isn't as simple as it seems. and with so little time left in rv, i shall now start to treasure everyday of my school life, so that i will leave 4e, disco & sc, with happy memories(:
i still have so much to say! haha
well disco now is pretty.. i don't know. i have no idea either how to describe the situation we're in now.. just that.. i hope the juniors will one day look back and love the disco we've built with them(:
agm is probably.. i dont know, 8th august? haha
just now as i was on the train home there was this couple sitting opposite me. the girl was crying so badly her eyes were all swollen and puffy, and the guy just sat there looking lost. and my guess is that they ere contemplating a break-up. which brings back memories. haha but i shan't talk about that. just wanted to say that sometimes in a relationship the girl only sees her suffering and how much she has put in, and it seems as though the realtionship doesn't mean anything to the guy. but just now, looking at the couple, i realised that the guy feels as much as the girl. and it probably isn't fair to say that he doesn't care. because from his look i could tell that it hurt him alot to see his girl cry for him. so its not fair to push the blame to the guy and blame him for all your suffering. the guy is also human, he has feelings as well. the girl is hurt, but the guy is hurt as well. and he suffers more, knowing that he had to hurt you and live with it.
and to think i only realised this now..
oh well. i'm getting stronger by the day! haha. i guess the process has taught me to grow and learn more about myself.
it isn't true that you didn't teach me anything, i've learnt a lot. sometimes i just miss telling you how my day was, how i've felt and how i'm happy to have you.. (: strongest wind is invisible, blowing from within, chilling my insides, but teaching me to grow into the harsh conditions..
;seokh
Y9:33:00 pm
July 23, 2006
): counted, 134, 7th jan, 21st may, 2nd oct.
when i may be able to give myself an answer for all that has happened.
still have tons of physics and amath to complete, arghh.
bleahs. FINE, I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.
i so want you out of my life. your presence makes me crumble and want to cry. yet i know its impossible to forget, you've already been imprinted, and the only way i can forget is to allow the tides of time to wash the imprints away.
to be strong, to have faith. but in what?
i wish there was an instruction manual telling you how to lead a happy life. i can envision the title already, "How to Lead a Happy Life for Dummies"
and life again seems so bleak!
i need some help here, maybe if anyone has extra happiness powder, you could share it with me? lols.
anyway.
i SHALL STAY HAPPY!
and not let obstacles get to me, or bring me down!
(: yong gan de huo xia qu, wei zi ji huo xia qu!
bu hui bei ren he ren, ren he dong xi da dao!
;seokh
Y12:21:00 pm
July 22, 2006
(: glad that everything has been cleared up.i've been trying to tell myself to forget. and i'm still trying. praying that time will heal all my wounds, and allow me to see things in a different light. believe&forgetmaybe when i realise, i'll be happierall i wanted was someone who can share my feelings..to grow is a tedious process, but from growth one matures. the relationship has taught me a lot, and i'm truly grateful for all that i've learnt. maybe the day i learn to give up, i'll learn who i really am.. i'm truly trying, because i know it won't ever be possibe anymore..give me the couragegosh today was a pig day! slept till 930, ate breakfast, and went back to sleep. woke at 130, ate lunch and went back to sleep. when i finally woke up it was time to go meet disco. am i a pig or am i a pig? or rather, it was the medicine. medicine is evil and causes drowsiness! ahaha..my computer keeps hanging and it is quite cool to see the whole page blank even though i've been typing furiously for the past thirty seconds. then, like a miracle, letters start appearing on my screen. i have a slow computer, haha. so its actually not my fault that i'm such a computer noob! there is a need for me to start studying soon, sigh. prelims are arriving and till now i still am living in a state of fog, trying to fumble my way through, wishing that what i'm seeing is what's really there.i shall be hardworking! i promise!anyway, i have a piece of good news! liying was accepted into rj dsa.. choir, i think. haha she's ONE COOL CAT!went to je popular after my piano earlier, and bumped into anna.. went on a spending spree and felt so contented after that, haha. i guess that's what retail therapy is supposed to do to the mind, but it feels weird doing retail therapy in just one single shop. and i still have 11 juniors' presents left to make! ( which by the way is like all of them ). we're celebrating agm on the coming saturday i heard.. wonder where the darling juniors will bring us, haha(: shall start working hard soon! (: hmmx. i've been wondering a lot about god these few days, is there really like someone up there who controls everything? its in all a pretty confusing concept, but i think its still good to have a sort of faith. like at the end of the day when you need help, there's this upper being you can pray to, and hope that he can help you deliver yourself from all your sins. and its good to have someone you can rely on, i guess. maybe i shall go ask one of my christian friends how the whole thing works. it sound interesting..shall end this extremely long entry, and say byebye till i'm next feeling so idle! AHAHA
;seokh
Y8:35:00 pm
July 21, 2006
this shall be a complaint entry.wah, just go away canmess up my lifeurghhhh!!!!!ultra tempted to scold bad word.there are always these people who try to make my life miserable.so suckywell if you think you can drive any rift between my best friends and i, YOU ARE WRONG.and i am quite pissed now.just go away and stop bothering me. i didn't even offend you in the first place.whoever you are lah.ARGHHHH!!!!rawrrr!!!this is one fierce tiger you are offending so you better get off my back before i chomp your head off!
angryness!
hmmx,sorry..dui bu qi...to him: still thinking and achingto grow up, telling myself,strongest wind is indeed invisible.
;seokh
Y8:50:00 pm
sick at home with a sore sore throat.i have slept approximately 22 hours the past two days.and i'm still tired. therefore this adoloscent concludes that there is something wrong with her and has decided to see the doctor later. anyway, to update my blog. the day before yesterday was racial harmony day. 4e made milo dinosaur for sale! and get this, EVERYONE played a part. 4E ROCKS MY WORLD. love them all. we're a really special class (well, overlooking the fact that we're the only class that takes lit), cus us here are all wonderful people with depth. we think. HAHA. not saying that non-lit people don't think, just that we think differently. anyway i was sorting out the photos earlier on, and i was super nostalgic for those moments. to think we only have so little time left. and i bet if i showed those photos on grad night with a farewell song most of the girls will burst into tears. <3 4e forever!ystd morning on the bus i was super pissed. two rv guys just have NO sense no decency. it was super ultra crowded on the 100(again) and the guys seated in front of me were VERY inconsiderate. firstly, the guy stuck his leg out and took up extra space. so i was trying not to fall the whole journey bacause his leg prevented me from holding onto anything at all! then, after the jerky journey, the bus finally reached the school. just as i was getting ready to alight, these two boys rudely pushed in front of me and fought to alight. how gross can it get. not even allowing the poor person standing without stability go first, much less a girl! no wonder they say rv guys are not real guys.but of couse this only applies to people like them. the guys i know are all quite alright, haha. dearth, lacking that feeling.can't wait.to grow up...growing...
;seokh
Y9:26:00 am
July 16, 2006
where has all my time gone to? i urgently need to learn time management. today mummy was very sweet. she woke up early in the morning and mended my bagstrap without me asking cause she saw it rip last night and knew i needed it today. my mum loves me, and i suddenly feel loved, assured and secure. to those out there who hate your parents, they love you, no matter who you are. and though it may seem otherwise at times, you're still their flesh and blood. just like how my mum gets mad at me for no reason sometimes, she loves me all the same. and even though at these times, i may lose heart and start telling myself otherwise, we are still family. and she will be in my life forever, just like how i'm in hers. i love my mummy and my daddy and ting. and i realised i sometimes take their love and how they dote on me for granted. i shall learn to appreciate them more! my life wouldn't be what it is now without them. the love of a familyis like the home you can always return tothe comfort you can always findthe joy you can always receiveand the tree you can always be sheltered underand all this he taught me.and everyday i realise,that at this stage i'm still thinking and achingtrying and learning to accept no matter how many coats of white i may apply,if i'm black underneath, i'm still black.and since people only see the white,no one knows who i truly amand i long for the day someone can truly see the real person i am.itsallbutafacadebut i'm learningto let the white slowly purify meso that i can at least be gray.
;seokh
Y7:37:00 pm
July 15, 2006
today was speech day.really tiring, having to stand around the WHOLE time in a strangling red blazer. but it was fun, and i guess i'll really miss times like this in the future, cause i won't have any more chance to wear it. today the funniest thing happened to me. i was on my way to liying's house in my black court shoes and we had to climb up this slope, so when i crossed the drain my heel got stuck and the whole thing came off. so i walked with a limp all the way up to her house haha. which was quite tough cause she lives in a condo on a hill so it was trudging upslope all the way.this is called karma because i laughed when i saw a teacher (think she's miss tan wan ting or something like that) get her heel stuck at the pathway outside the hall with the red brick floor. i shall not laugh at the misfortune of others in future, i promise X)but i had alot of fun today. i went around getting people to pose for photos with me. the many wonderful photos unfortunately do not have a chance to be showcased because this noob does not know how to upload photos, ahaha. it was photo mania today! my favourites, other than the group ones, are the ones i took with jiamin with changlok in the background, the one i took with aubrey, and the one i took with ziyang. ziyang looked super cool in his ncc uniform!!hmmm i realised actually i miss talking to ziyang. its been a long log time since we talked cause i just didn't seem to have the chance after we went to different classes..yeahhave physics tuition tomorrow at four hahai hope the teacher won't mind that i left every single definition question on my last physics test blank. ):and i brushed past him, his hand patting my headand i didn't see him againyudao<3wo hai shi ke yi kan dao, ganjue de dao ni dui wo de zhong yao..wo men rao le zhe me yi quan cai yu daowo bi shui dou gen ming bai ni de zhong yaojue ding le, ni de shou wo wo le bu hui fang diao.ying wei wo yao de wo zi ji zhi daozhi yao ni de jian bang ye rang wo kaoto grow up
;seokh
Y10:16:00 pm
today was exhausting! was in school until like 730 for speech day rehearsal where we had to carry& arrange chairs.
but it was all pretty cool, because we slacked quite alot and anna, weiguo and i brought changlok to the tunnel and we brought the disco sec4s to the cool tutorial rooms!
so actually it was quite fun. to think that i won't have any more chance to do this is quite sad i realised. and this is going to sound dramatic but a sense of nostalgia washes over me as i am typing this. in three more weeks i will have officially stepped down. wow. i'll miss disco. simple as that. i love disco like i love my family. and the fire within will never die! (:disco<3
keep falling asleep in class recently, i guess i need to catch up on my sleep! ahaha i hope mr chen and guo lao shi didn't catch me sleeping during their lessons!
anyway now i have this new favourite song, yu dao from the green forest drama serial thingy. its such a sad sad sad song but so touching. :(
tomorrow's speech day, i'm looking forward to it. yeah it signifies the last of my duties, but more importantly its the last project i take on in council. shall remember the experience always.
oh yeah i would like to say THANKYOU to my darling junior zunsiong who has so kindly lent me his camera to take photos! THANKYOU again!
wonder what i'll be doing this time next year.
erasing, adapting. but still i live in regret and hope.
I WILL BE STRONG
strongest wind cannot be seen...
;seokh
Y12:24:00 am
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