September 23, 2006
today i finally collasped after 11 non-stop hours of ba li lian ren. status now stands at episode 16! i will finish it by tonight! haha.diplomacy. what does this word mean?not literally, but what does being diplomatic encompass? to be polite and distant? or maintaining good ties? what does it mean when a person is diplomatic? or a country for that matter. if you're diplomatic, does it mean that you put up a front when facing others? so is being diplomatic good or bad?i guess both aspects are relatively equal.anyway sec4 sharks if you guys are reading this, i talked to him today. and from his response, i think we thought too much. from what i can see he has everything planned out and is extremely well-focused. so no worries. will give you guys the details soon. (:its funny how listening to songs and watching vcds can change my mood. how odd.expression and comprehension
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Y10:09:00 pm
September 21, 2006
today is the last day of prelims!ba li lian ren is ultra nice can. but so far i've only watched 5 episodes out of the 20 jayne lent me. watch until my eyes going to pop out liao haha.hey you guys if you want me to put your blog as one of my links, please tag me with your blog add, thanks! (:to tango the night away
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Y10:55:00 pm
September 20, 2006
today i went out with soph&sokh.woah talked like mad. discovered so many new things today.. well not all were good but some were.anyway tomorrow is the last day of the prelims!hees yeah(: though i feel guilty for not having put in my best effort but oh well its ending. and i shall work very hard for 'O's i promise!today sophia told me something interesting she heard on the radio. would you rather love, or be loved? then i told her, i'm selfish! i want both! HAHA.and i bought jaýchou's new cd today. the yi ran fan te xi. and although his singing isn't really that impressive, he's a really good musician. in the sense that he writes his own music and i really admire his music. when i listen to his music i find myself listening to the structure, the style and the way the whole piece comes together as one. and i think his songs really rock! haha i think his cd is the only one i'd buy without regrets, ultra value for money! in a nutshell, if you support him, buy his cd! lols i sound like a fight piracy advert can.tomorrow is chemistry practical!oh yeah. one other thing i discovered about myself. i'm not very sensitive to my surroundings. as in í tend not to pay attention to details. which is bad. sigh maybe thats why i don't make a good lit student. its kind of sad to know that you're not good at the thing that you enjoy the most. that day i was studying lit, and i discovered that my lit is not very strong. and its really quite demoralising. don't they always say, if you have the passion, you'll succeed in whatever you do? but the point is i'm not. should a person's life be based on what she can do, or what she wants to do? if i persist, will i become better at it?i don't know. but one thing i know for sure, is that practise makes perfect. and if i don't give myself the chance to try, i will never know if i can ever be good at it. so, the moral is, TRY! (:never give up dreams and bow to reality. living in utopia is no good, but living with dreams gives the motivation and drive to fight for what truly matters...
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Y11:20:00 pm
September 16, 2006
to be happy or to be sad?four more teststhat i'm quite sure i'm gonna flunk.haha. phy prac was a disaster! so many people got slaughtered by it can. anyway this week was just really hectic. for me, it was also really draining, studying mugging pia-ing and hugging buddha's legs until one two am. so if you see me, don't be surprised, i haven't been involved in a fight, i just lack sleep. yanneng makes me laugh. he manages to cheer me up everytime i feel sad. he always manages to come up with the corniest jokes, funniest expressions and exaggerated stories to make me laugh. HAHA,thankyou yanneng(: i wouldn't know what i'd do if i didn't have sokhwei and sophia. thank god for them. (: (so random)i miss disco.miss the times we'd go out together, the times we laughed together, cried together and had fun together. its not true that once i leave them i leave them forever. i guess deep inside there's still a part of me which will live forever with disco.dang wo gu dan, wo hui xiang qi ni men de. i promise.yeah my family rocks. i love daddy and mummy and my sister ting.my favourite songs(for now)GET HIGH; firqian li zhi wai; jaychou&ah feifan zhuan di qiu; panweiboshi jie mo ri; jaychoufaithfully; hadychasing cars, jonathanJONATHAN ALL THE WAY!!!
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Y5:51:00 pm
September 13, 2006
i think i'm the only crazy person who still updates during prelims.tomorrow's physics and i'm quite worried. oh wellstoday i was discussing joyluck with sokh on the bus. very cool. haha turns out we feel the same way about the characters and we were analysing them. i think learning lit gives a lot of insight into human relationhips and how a human's character works. so very cool. (:had physics tuition with cheryl. i really hate going home alone. i don't like the feeling of lonelinesss.really exhausted.i love wo jiao jin sanshun. its my new favourite show!love like you've never been hurt ;
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Y11:30:00 pm
September 08, 2006
An Enemy of the Peoplejust want to share some of my thoughts after reading the play. well part of act one scene two of the play to be exact.in the play, Dr. Stockmann wishes merely to reveal the truth about the springs so that the people of his town and those coming to the springs will have a healthy springs to go to and not a dirty disease inducing one. but his intentions are misunderstood. firstly, by Morten. who thinks that he is just trying to pull a childish pank on his brother. secondly, he seems to be used by Hovstad, who wants to take the opportunity to inject some 'hypodermic' into the 'fence-sitting deadheads', and more importantly, to show that the authorities are not always correct. i think human nature is more explicitly shown in Hovstad's response. he detests authority because he is born poor and he knows he can never hold power despite yearning to do so,which i believe is what causes the hatred within Hovstad. and because he is but human, he hates authority and shows it through taking sides against authority. oh well. sounds like a lit essay. there's more to the play, its actually much more interesting than this, but i've only read it until here so far so.. haha.anyway i would recommend this play to people who like the twists and turns of politics and know to expect more than good-natured response when their position and power is being threatened. its quite a cool read! haha.today (i mean yesterdaybecause its 0103 now) was another slacker day. but oh well i went for a math tution and ms ho taught me shearing and stretching! haha. ms ho rocks she's one of the most dedicated teachers i know. (:haha i'm studying! (:oh yeah, to jinyin: get well soon darling! :D
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Y1:00:00 am
September 06, 2006
yesterday was a very different day. i realised actually we're constantly in contact and i've never tried not seeing him for a month. haha is it a curse? anyway i hope you get to read this! (:
well this is dedicated to
you :
thankyou for everything, i've really learnt and matured a lot from being with and around you. yesterday was enlightening when you said you "bu gan xiang tai duo le". hmmx. i kinda dunno what to say to that. just that i hope the situation changes after my 'O's. i think learning to give is the most precious gift i've received from you. the second most is learning to be totally honest. and even though you always say you don't want me to give too much, you don't think thats too good for me, but well.. i guess its really kinda hard. maybe thats why we're fated never to be together. because i give too much and you don't want me to. and if i stop giving, i'll just be following what you say. which means i'm giving again. ironic, eh? but i guess thats just the way life works! haha kinda confusing yeah? but anyway, i'll work hard. for
myself and those who care. (:
wo hui jiayou de, ni ye yi ding yao oh!
then another complex problem i discovered today was revealed to me during the screening of my lit text, the joy luck club. its about worth. Rose goes out of her way to give to Ted, because she believes that she loves Ted and this is the way her emotions should be expressed. but to Ted, she just becomes weak and subservient. and Ted apparently dislikes this side of her and requests for divorce. understandable, for if he wanted a wife like that he might as well go get a robot. but in the end, her mother saves her, by showing her her
worth. and she realises that no one, absolutely NO ONE should live for the sake of someone else. Rose should not and need not live for Ted. perhaps its chinese traditions which cause her to be this way, for they state that a woman must be obedient and 'ever-giving' to her husband. but ironically, she has never been taught to think this way. in fact, quite contrarily, her mother recognises the need for self-worth and teaches her so. i wonder, could it be that chinese women will always be chinese? maybe deep within all of us, no matter where we stay or what we become, we will stay true to our heritage displaying the characteristics of people of our culture. haha someone should do a research on this!
yeah, worth! (: thought-provoking, eh?
well this is turning out to be a really long entry so i better end here!
as sokh would say,
Ta
Ta
For
Now!(:
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Y6:20:00 pm
September 01, 2006
sad to say, i haven't had much luck with my first two papers, english and hcl. oh wells. i'm pretty disappointed with myself, because i can't seem to concentrate on studying! i really need to try harder!yesterday was teachers' day, and i want to say a big thankyou to all my teachers, for having taught me so patiently, and allowing me room for growth as a person. thankyou : mr chen, mr ng, sir, ms chew, mr suria, guolaoshi, mrs law, zhanglaoshi, ms cheang.. these are the teachers who have made a difference in my sec sch life! thankyou!(: i'm pretty scared, cus i keep having this bad feeling that something is going to happen. i'm usually pretty accurate! anw to my jie, to grow up means to allow yourself to move on. please never forget the story that i told you, and that i will always be here for you, no matter when you may need me. jiayou(: today, i again experienced IT! (: now i understand why families were created. or rather, why we have families. that day we were talking about whether people came about as a form of evolution, or as wherther there was this supreme creator of men. i forgot the names, but i suddenly think, maybe, just maybe, there is indeed someone who creates us. because otherwise why would things fit in so perfectly? why would we have family whom we know are undeniably the closest to us? i believe people have experienced the ugly sides of family. and i know of quite a few such people. but i still believe family is most precious. just now as i walked out into the living room, i saw my dad sitting on the sofa, lifelessly, his head bent, lying on his chest. and i got a shock. i immediately rushed forward to wake him up. for that single moment i was almost worried that he wasn't sleeping. then it dawned on me, that i take him for granted. he who helps me wash my shoes, he who makes my cereal each morinig, he who covers me with a blanket in the night, he who provides for my everyday life. and i thank, whoever it is i have to thank, for giving me such a wonderful father, for such a wonderful family. i can't imagine life without daddy, mummy, or tingting. i have learnt to appreciate and to be thankful. now i understand, you're not all that matters, i've found new purpose in life...
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