October 26, 2006
physics prac urghhthe line became a curve and i couldn't see the image of the pin at all. wanted to puke after that cus using only one eye made me dizzy.crap la right.sian la, i am so not motivated. my lit sucks ): i am horrible at it and i am sad and demoralised. ):i just can't seem to get out of the stupid b3 grade. ): really quite sad.deceiving myself only makes things worse. i have got to face up to reality and accept what has happened, is happening and will happen. no more lies, i promise. i will protect myself.
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Y11:36:00 pm
October 23, 2006
i amultra hyper with a tissue stuck up my nose!ahaha!rarrrri <3 my life!
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Y11:43:00 pm
October 21, 2006
):i hate the hazemy lungs are going to burst soonurghh.
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Y11:41:00 pm
October 19, 2006
(:i love gong!
today i am bored! again! haha. but i'm quite happy with the life i'm leading now. relaxed (:
i promise, if you ask, i'll tell you what you want to hear.
because its what i want too..
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Y9:30:00 pm
October 16, 2006
today , i graduated from river valley high school.i am surprised to say that i am glad to have graduatedafter so long of struggling, i finally graduated. (:mr chen couldn't make it for our graduation ceremony today. he is sick and may have to go to the hospital. finally, he replied charlotte's message. i remember most vividly "you all have graduated." his final message to us. yes, indeed, we have graduated. we owe our success to all the teachers who have taught us, especially mr chen. its sounds corny as ms chew would say, but we wouldn't be what we are now if not for all the wonderful teachers we have. my dad says,darkness stimulates germination and plant growthhow true. if not for obstacles we face, we'd never learn to stand strong and be resilient. gong - wo de ye man wang fei!!ROCKS! haha!! (:wo de zui ai!!
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Y8:57:00 pm
October 14, 2006
see?!!
this is why sometimes i hate computers. when i write a nice long filling post it refuses to publish itself. when i type nonsense the nonsense comes out. urghh.
i received a birthday present yesterday! a book titled how to lead a happy life for dummies and happiness powder. thank you for the gift. i'll keep everything, always. as for your promise, i'd rather you not keep it, but i can't stop you from keeping it. all i want to say is that i really appreciate all that you've done for me. thanks. (:
last night i was talking to somebody about relationships. and i think i enlightened the person because he now seems to have a very clear idea of what he should do now. so, i'm really happy for him. and, like i've said before, don't ever regret.
i guess i'm not a person who cares a lot. and i forget very easily things and favours i've received. but i realised sometimes, things that are meant to be forgotten should be forgotten. i'm tired of this guessing game. i give up.
my favourite junior has been going through a rather rough patch recently. she's a very bubbly and lively girl and everytime i see her i just want to smile along with her. seeing her so despondent makes me feel very angry at myself for being so helpless. but luckily she has her favourite senior there for her, so i guess i shouldn't worry too much.
waiting no more. i give up as of now. if i'm not sure , why should i hold on? how can i hold on?
remember, i didn't give up on you. you gave up on me first. you were wrong.
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Y6:52:00 pm
i have written three entries so far that have been unable to be postedso i'm not going to waste time writing a long one nowtesting testing testing
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Y6:50:00 pm
October 08, 2006
today i saw a really pretty little girl at the shop downstairs. she wasn't very tall, probably coming up to only my waist level. i know that really well cus she bumped into me. then, when i wanted to pay for my stuff, i realised my money was gone. do you think she pick-pocketed me?i'd be really very angry if she really did. and the money wasn't a small amount. D:
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Y6:55:00 pm
October 06, 2006
i know myself just too wellits blatantly impossibleand yet i continue tryingi don't know if its because i'm too proud to admit i'll never give upor if i've really fallen in too deeplythen again, does it matter?okay yeah it does.i'm kinda sick of myself i need something to make me happyhappy from withinnot just superficiallyi've had enough of the pretenseeven though it keeps surfacing subconsciouslyundeniably, its become a part of methe parts i show, are those i think can be acceptedthe parts i hide,only i can seeand these parts?hideous.let me share your troublesi'll let you share minethats all i ask for* and i wish upon a falling star-------------------------------------------------dearest changlok, thanks for the report card. it meant a lot to me. (:-----------------------------------
i hope i'll never regret going. but i always do.
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Y8:47:00 pm
October 04, 2006
my best friend needs some help and i'm at a loss as to how to help her. i hope everything will turn out alright.everything's but a facadeenclosed in this hole of a worldlimited opportunitesraging competitionintense jealousyi lost the lightwhich leads to the end of the tunneland i wonder, whether i will ever be able to walk outunscathedunharmedinnocentunlikelyperhaps this is the process of growing uplosing and findingdrowning and emergence maybe i should just find someone to confide inbutexpression and comprehensionwho will understand?mirroring the surroundingsbecoming another dolly.i'm ashamed to admit i'm being mouldedwhat purpose do i serve?when will i find my calling?the aim, the goal, the ultimate end. yet to be continued.i am bored ):
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Y5:06:00 pm
October 01, 2006
i have finally gotten my new phone! haha its MY NEW LOVE <3>
life has passed like a blur the last week. thickening my already very thick skin and begging for marks is a horror. now, its the moderation. it scares me to even think about it. its funny how sometimes people say your life is in your own hands. how can moderation be controlled by yourself? if i controlled moderation i would give everybody full marks for all the effort we've put in. but then again, if i studied hard enough in the first place, i wouldn't even need to depend on moderation. i need this BADLY. VERY VERY BADLY.
so, now for the revelation.
L1 - english A2
R5 - physics B3
chemistry B4
ssh B3
lit B3
emath A1
amath A1
chinese A1
hcl B4
L1R5 - 11-3 = 8
how sad ):
to my favourite senior :
when you're on top of the world, you own everything and you own nothing. when you're a mere mortal, you own nothing and you own everything. if you're contented with your lot, you will never be unhappy with what you have. so if you're not contented, does it mean that you're destined for more? i don't know. but i do know that you have the ability to stand there. you choose the path you want to take. you choose to walk, run or fly. don't ever look back and regret. let history and memory be your textbooks. evaluate, contemplate, and give it all you've got. let your life's purpose guide your decision. love what you do and do what you love. jiayou(:
i shall start working hard very very soon! (:
to go or not to go?
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